I think the thing about February is that it comes right after January.
While that may be one of the dumbest sentences I’ve ever written, it’s true. We go into January with new ambitions and expectations that are common with the start of the new year. We expect that things will change drastically and that things will be better than they were before. We expect that maybe, just maybe, it’ll stop snowing!!!! But it’s honestly just another month. It’s another day in the life. What changes is simply an abstract shift in our motivation to do and experience things a little bit differently. But that’s what January is for. It’s the honeymoon phase with the new year.
From my personal experience and from what I’ve heard from friends, February has been tough.When February comes along, we realize that we’ve put quite the burden on our shoulders. Things have not changed that much. You told yourself you wouldn’t send any more drunk texts or that you would only drink on weekends. Blacking out on New Years did not blackout old habits and relationships. We’ve only flipped over a page in our calendar and it’s another day in the year.
It’s reasonable to have a bad day or even a bad week. So you try to make up for it by being in an extra good mood the next week. But it’s hard when things continue to go less than perfectly, whether it be job rejections, a heavy workload, or boy/girl problems (don’t even get me started on that). Honestly, the best thing is to believe that everything happens for a reason. I’m personally banking on that because otherwise, fuck everything.
Things will fall into place. You’re going to find the job that fits you, and if you don’t, maybe you’re meant to do something else for the time being. If that boy doesn’t like you back, somebody else will come along, even if it seems impossible at the time. Wondering “what if I had tried harder” or “what if I had actually made a move” or “what if I hadn’t sent that text” isn’t going to change anything. Just go for whatever it is you want, and if it doesn’t work out, it is what it is. Don’t live life with regrets. For real. Maybe February is short for a reason. Time is all there is, and we can only hope that March brings better things.
On the other hand, if you’ve had a fantastic February, keep doing you!